Look out, he's emotional today.

I'm listening to “American IV: The Man Comes Around” by Johnny Cash, and a profound sadness just washed over me. By track four ('Bridge Over Troubled Water') I'm just crying.
This man is good.
The years of pain and sadness this man conveys. It's profound.
But I cannot help but wonder if perhaps the news of June's recent passing may also be adding to this sadness?

There's more here, but I don't know what it is yet.
Something's out of balance. I'm wobbly.

I'm also wondering what I've picked up from my recent interactions. I feel them inside of me. Something heavy.

It is hard to fathom the depth of where my beliefs, Love [for All], and strong compunction for helping others will take me. Even when I try my best to not fathom it.
There are always personal consequences when I want to heal.
I always choose to accept it, even if I know the challenge is great.
Unfortunately, it means becoming intimate with the pain…Absorbing it into myself.
If it particularly resonates with me, I have to be careful not to let it shake me apart..which, naturally, is what it wants to do.
Sometimes, if the resonance is too deep, or very close to me, the ride gets wild and scary.
But coming through that other side, witnessing the transformation, is always worth the time, energy and compassion.

This probably sounds really way out there, especially for people who may not be ready for it…Don't worry, I'm not going crazy. OR at least, any crazier than what you already know me as.

Maybe I just need to get some more sleep.

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